Lord I need you.

When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

Well Lord, my heart is overwhelmed.
It is barely beating... but it is only beating for you.
You are my eternity, you are my soul.
I can’t live in this being all alone.
I feel like a wave is crashing over me and I can’t breathe.
I can only make mistakes... I can only sin.
I am a horrible person... I can’t do anything right. Every decision sinks me deeper into despair.
I need you.
I need you but I don’t feel you anywhere. I go through the motions of everyday but i feel nothing.
I pray but my words disappear into thin air. I Sing to bring myself closer to you.
God I need your healing. I need you to have mercy on me. I need you to fix me. It’s like I only fall back into the hole with every try I take. Every path is obstructed. There is no light in my tunnel. I’m running out of air, and my soul feels the weight of suffocation.
I need you God.
Show yourself to me. Prove to me that you are here.
Show me your love.
I am an undeserving sinner, but YOU died for me.
You said seek and you will find me.
I am begging you to show me your peace and your light.
Destroy my uncertainty and replace it with faith.
You made me for a reason...
you made me....
Lord I need you.