The war is starting and I'm hardly prepared, fatal shots hit me and I'm so fucking scared. Harsh words are thrown like knives and I'm your target. I'm bleeding out but you don't stop it. Your fluttery moves and your jagged lies cut the deepest, your blame is your biggest defense. I breathe in your betrayal and drag myself to a safe place, but my hope is shattered, there is no saving grace. So I pray empty words to Jesus, hoping but having lost faith, where is my savior, I need him in this place.
You find me bruised and beaten, wipe off the blood stains, and act like you created no such sin. You lace me up with beautiful kisses and I'm sorries ...wiping away the burdens and the doubts. I forgive you and smile as if it never happened, maybe it won't, maybe our family will be whole.
I don't know when the next blow will happen, i gather up my ammo and store it inside, prepping my heart for the longest ride. Though you never start the story at the beginning, I am always lost and you are always winning.
My heart is broken beyond all doubt, my soul is lost and may never come out. Happiness is just a cruel intention, there is no longevity..its sitting in detention. When you feel so free yet your still shackled in chains, you look around to find your only in range, this place will not change, and your only to blame. There's no hope when its always the same..