Fudging brownies.

Do my hair, fix my eyes, put on something that makes me feel good.
But your not here.

Get up, get charged, gym and tan my skin...
But your not here.

I feel great, the power runs through my veins, I cook for two and dream of you..
But your still not here.

So I watch the clock and count the minutes for you to return to me... I pace back and forth throughout each day...surely this has got to be a mistake... You didn't break my heart....I'm waiting for you
But your still not here.

I give in and text you first, your instant reply gives me so much hope, but your failure to respond to my last question shows me there's no hope in this mess... I wait and wait

But your still not here.

The days go on, sometimes I'm great...sometimes I'm strong. The days that I wake up and the hurt is so deep...it takes my breath away. I drag myself through each minute... Night falls and I lie awake. I dream of your body, your eyes....your smile. There's hope in my dreams...your still in them. But when I wake...

Your not here

I go to work and it's a welcome distraction... Anything to get my mind off of your words. It doesn't hurt as much anymore...but I'm desperate for the life that you gave me. I want the fun and new...I still want you...
But your not here.

It happened so fast... And sometimes that's what hurts the most.
How can you be in love with someone and the next day your not?
Is that really what separates men from woman? Their power to love and their power to move on?
I want so bad to be with you, to be apart of your life...but time isn't with me...and it's moving so fast. I still feel like it was yesterday when you told me to move on...but you see...I can't because

Your not here.

I know you were right.. I know who is right for me....but the truth still hurts. My heart still wants you...

But you're not here.