I am soooo lost.

But maybe in the midst of losing, I'm really finding my direction? I need to move...I need to leave Andrew. I got that down...but am I trying to destroy other people in the process? What have I become to do that to someone? How do I focus when love is the one thing I depend on so much. When will I stop thinking about myself and just focus on my daughter? I need help so badly....I can't believe the person I have become. I bet God is sad to see the person I am today. I bet he's asking me to come back to his side and figure out these things for myself. I need you lord...I need to stop pushing you away.